Disappear !!!

I often wonder

How it would be like to disappear

Never looking back

Wanting to be anywhere but here

Leaving all the fears behind

All the joys now unknown

Walking away from the obvious

Nipping memories already sown

Pointed fingers and I told you so's

That constant scream in your head

A spell and fairy dust would work

I'll just be gone, not dead

Would someone miss me

I haven't given this a thought

Maybe I no longer care

I'm tired of the battles I've fought

I often wonder

How it would be like to disappear

Would it be a brand new start

Or would it be crippled with fear

A blank mind, an empty slate

The happy feeling of nothingness

Nothing more to sort and clear

None of those lingering mess

Along with the sense of forced duty

The burden of responsibility now erased

Like invisible wings helping me fly

As I give in, blind and unfazed

No more insecurities, no more desires

Trying to be the girl with no name

No longer a part of this tiring journey

Was life for me, for some a game

To lies, deceit, malice and greed

I'll finally turn a deaf ear

Floating above the cotton clouds

I'll embrace void, feeling clear

Never looking back

Wanting to be anywhere but here

I often wonder

How it would be like to disappear

---Priyanka